Multiple Sclerosis

I’m ready to let the world into my journey. I have multiple sclerosis. Two little letters, MS. Those two little letters have changed my life.  I’m not who I used to be. And that’s not all together a bad thing. In a weird sort of way, MS  has been a gift from God. Although days like today do not feel like a gift. But, hear me out, I HAVE to walk daily with Jesus through this illness. He never leaves my side.  And for that I am thankful.   My pride is being stripped away. I’m learning to be grateful for the small things.

I’m learning to give my old dreams over to God and with open hands, accept the new journey He has for me. Some days I feel stronger than I’ve ever been. It’s not easy though.  Since we are all friends and I’m being honest here, some days I just cry. This new normal is not very nice.  I have to focus forward on what’s next. If I look back to when I was this…. Or when I could do that….Or we were going to do this…..  I lose a piece of me and I feel weak and sad. But on those good days when I place my trust in my God and I can lean on my family, the future doesn’t look so scary.

I’ll write more of my story soon. I want to let you in on my journey. I need the encouragement of my friends and family.  I’m learning to laugh along even this journey.  On Christmas Eve, the family went to lunch at Barrow’s pizza. I got the salad bar and I thought I was putting salad in my bowl, but instead I was missing my bowl completely and was throwing the salad on the ground! I laughed and said it was a new meaning to a “tossed salad”. J  Gotta laugh.

Thank you for your prayers and well wishes for me and my family.  I have a long journey ahead and I don’t really know what it will look like. But I do know that it will be ok. “For when I am weak, then I am strong!”